Had a serious fight with my brothers who are overseas right now... Just wanted to ask my dad something as i didn't know what's the time over there at all and in the end, all i got is nothing but their sarcasm... Tried to explain things to them but to no avail and even got scolded by my brothers using vulgarities... I mean both of them had a tiring day over there, that I can accept cause they did tried to explain that they had a long day... But the only thing is I am also having a tiring day in school as my school reopens but they don't seem to understand... I asked them nicely how's things over there and told them nicely to call dad over, in the end all they do is playing games with me... I got so fed up until I started shouting at them over at MSN... Guess what? My brother just scolded me Fat Fuck for not exercising and they think that I have been spending my money ONLY on food!! But I don't blame them cause i did tell them that i spent the money on food BUT that was a joke... But no point explaining to them cause they will think that I am trying to find an excuse to cover my wrongdoings...

Anyway in their eyes, I am always not a good sister to them at all... They feel that they cannot even communicate with me due to generation gap... No matter what, I am nothing compared to my sister as they think that she is the only one who treats them really well... So I don't even complain or even bear a grudge against them cause I got nothing to say... I can't even change their thinkings... So I just accept the fact that I am a very bad and selfish sister... To them, I am nothing... And hence the argument...

Another point, What's wrong with fantasizing? I still don't think that I did nothing wrong with faztasizing... So what if I am 18? What's wrong with faztasizing boys? It's not as if I want to marry them or whatsoever... What's wrong with me fantasizing guys? It's not as if I am really into it for the rest of my life... It's no wonder that they have no life... Because all they do is to play all day long and nothing else... That is why this sentence is absolutely true, both parties will never understand what each other is going through unless they experience it themselves... My cousins are still fanztsizing even when they are over 18 years old... Must I stop fantasizing in order to show that I am mature? I don't think so... Everybody has their own lifestyle and nobody can criticize or even use it to throw sarcasms back to the other party at all...

In whatever case, I am in the wrong to scold or shout at them over at MSN but they shouldn't scold me vulgarities... But I will apologise to them provided they also apologise to me...

Monday, December 28, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Sometimes I really wonder if friendship really does exist. Some felt the betrayal from their very own close friends, expecially when the friendship is only around a year and a half, close to two years long. What could be their reason of betrayal? What is their prespective of betrayal? How do they portrait betrayal in their very own life? Is it a small and trivial matter or is it going to be a major matter where the trust in friendship is on the verge of "death"? Many people may wonder and have many question marks floating inside their head but they just can't get the type of answers they wanted for their own doubts against their friendship. So what's it gonna be? Spending their time thinking of the betrayal that their friends have caused on them all the time or just gonna move on with life and live it to the fullest? I just don't know...

Life is short... Do treasure every moment and cherish everyone around you, even your arch nemesis... You might not know what's gonna happen to you the very next moment...

Sunday, December 27, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y