Had a serious fight with my brothers who are overseas right now... Just wanted to ask my dad something as i didn't know what's the time over there at all and in the end, all i got is nothing but their sarcasm... Tried to explain things to them but to no avail and even got scolded by my brothers using vulgarities... I mean both of them had a tiring day over there, that I can accept cause they did tried to explain that they had a long day... But the only thing is I am also having a tiring day in school as my school reopens but they don't seem to understand... I asked them nicely how's things over there and told them nicely to call dad over, in the end all they do is playing games with me... I got so fed up until I started shouting at them over at MSN... Guess what? My brother just scolded me Fat Fuck for not exercising and they think that I have been spending my money ONLY on food!! But I don't blame them cause i did tell them that i spent the money on food BUT that was a joke... But no point explaining to them cause they will think that I am trying to find an excuse to cover my wrongdoings...

Anyway in their eyes, I am always not a good sister to them at all... They feel that they cannot even communicate with me due to generation gap... No matter what, I am nothing compared to my sister as they think that she is the only one who treats them really well... So I don't even complain or even bear a grudge against them cause I got nothing to say... I can't even change their thinkings... So I just accept the fact that I am a very bad and selfish sister... To them, I am nothing... And hence the argument...

Another point, What's wrong with fantasizing? I still don't think that I did nothing wrong with faztasizing... So what if I am 18? What's wrong with faztasizing boys? It's not as if I want to marry them or whatsoever... What's wrong with me fantasizing guys? It's not as if I am really into it for the rest of my life... It's no wonder that they have no life... Because all they do is to play all day long and nothing else... That is why this sentence is absolutely true, both parties will never understand what each other is going through unless they experience it themselves... My cousins are still fanztsizing even when they are over 18 years old... Must I stop fantasizing in order to show that I am mature? I don't think so... Everybody has their own lifestyle and nobody can criticize or even use it to throw sarcasms back to the other party at all...

In whatever case, I am in the wrong to scold or shout at them over at MSN but they shouldn't scold me vulgarities... But I will apologise to them provided they also apologise to me...

Monday, December 28, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Sometimes I really wonder if friendship really does exist. Some felt the betrayal from their very own close friends, expecially when the friendship is only around a year and a half, close to two years long. What could be their reason of betrayal? What is their prespective of betrayal? How do they portrait betrayal in their very own life? Is it a small and trivial matter or is it going to be a major matter where the trust in friendship is on the verge of "death"? Many people may wonder and have many question marks floating inside their head but they just can't get the type of answers they wanted for their own doubts against their friendship. So what's it gonna be? Spending their time thinking of the betrayal that their friends have caused on them all the time or just gonna move on with life and live it to the fullest? I just don't know...

Life is short... Do treasure every moment and cherish everyone around you, even your arch nemesis... You might not know what's gonna happen to you the very next moment...

Sunday, December 27, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today I had the worst day ever... Screw the BMic quiz!!! Hard questions tested, Long answers to be provided and worst of all, FLUNKING of paper!! Man, BMic is one of the worst subject that I've ever seen and studied throughout of my school life!!! Screw the setter of the paper too!!!

Now inside the computer lab, waiting for facebook to load and killing time very slowly... Time passes so slow and to think i can actually find gaming websites to play and kill time but things happen to occur the opposite of what I want to accomplish...

Just not the day for me...

Monday, November 23, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

This is the one incident that I'll never forget about humanity is this society... Go on and read it... It's totally true...

Two Choices: What would you do? You make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:'When not interfered by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.’
‘Where is the natural order of things in my son?'The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart. The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.

The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.The game would now be over.The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first! Run to first!'Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.B y the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball. The smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!'

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOT NOTE TO THIS STORY:We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail, or even blogs without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate.The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.

If you're thinking about this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference.

We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.' So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice:Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.You now have two choices:

1. Share with your friends on this blog
2. Ignore this story and get on with life

Do the right thing... Make the right choice...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today we are learning on how to write a professional lab report over at CSAS class as we will be having a test on it in about 2 to 3 weeks' time... It's fun as we work together and challenge the time to finish the tasks given to us... Then we are given a "huge" homework as we have to produce a formal lab report by the next lesson...

After CSAS class, we had MCP (Meet Care Person) and we are discussing about CCN day (don't ask me what's CCN day)... It's GOD DAMN BORING and I don't even know what to do on that very day... My friends and I were tasked to pack the stall up at the end of the day... Plus I have to do CIP (Community Involvement Programme) on Saturday where I have back problems, which I have to produce a letter verifying that I have back problems in order to miss the whole thing... Sucks!!! If that's the case, I would have to go to SGH (Singapore General Hospital) and find my principal doctor to write a letter, which costs me bloody $80!!! So in the end, I have no choice but to go as my father wouldn't even pay this sum of money just to verify that I got back problems... Haiz :(

It's just not my day... HMPH!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Last friday, I went to see my sister's POP(Passing Out Parade) over at NUS straight after school together with my family. The POP was really good as there were performances by the band majors and drum majors from 150 different secondary schools... Especially there's one group of the band majors performed an item for us where they used the song "Beat It" by M.J.(Michael Jackson). Then when the POP had ended, My family and I took bus 48 straight to Parkway and had Subway for dinner... The Cold Cut Trio was DAMN GOOD!!! I had a foot long of it and apparently I was very full after finishing the foot long all by myself as I hadn't had anything since breakfast that day... Stupid school!!! Don't give us any breaks on friday... You sure made my stomach suffered!!! DAMN YOU!!!

For today, I have my piano lessons going on... Dread to go for it... lucky next Sunday got no lesson... Otherwise I really have to miss my sister's performance over at Esplanade, which I really love to go and watch... It's free seating... who wouldn't want to go??

Dragging my feet over to my music studio.... :P

Sunday, November 08, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today's lesson is all about doing our research for our research topics... I don't know why but something tells me that I am not in the mood to do anything right now... And the teacher is telling us to finish up last week's work where I don't even have a thumbdrive to save all my things...

Anyway had 6 hours of lab again... This time round the FC(Food Chemistry) lab is freaking slow... We have to wait for the stupid chemical reactions to occur where it takes up fully 3 hours of our time... So the whole lab session is GOD DAMN BORING!!!!

It's just not my day... :(

Thursday, November 05, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

I shall not blog much today. Today I had a boring day in school, where everyday is boring to me, as far as school is involved... Was god damn tired during the FC lecture, then went for CSAS class and apparently it's more boring, not the teacher's fault but lies with the ENVIRONMENT THAT WE'RE IN... Then went to the library and did my homework with my friends... And met my classmate, jia min, at the bus stop. Chatted for a while and went straight home, did my logbook for my practical tomorrow and watched my favourite China's serial drama, 神探狄仁杰, by my second most favourite idol, 张子健... :D I mean how boring can my day get??

Well, guess it's just my day... No regrets though :D

Wednesday, November 04, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today I had a boring time over at music class. The computer hanged for a few times and it still doesn't respond to the end task. And we have wasted at least half an hour of our lesson. Bloody hell... Anyway i onyl found out that we don't have any BMic tutorial for today. Lucky i got no lesson, otherwise i am so gonna be late for my music tutorial, which I don't like to be late for any lesson for no apparent reason...

Here I am, inside the computer laboratory, updating my facebook and my blog... Blasting music into my ears, wasting my time over here... Still have to go over to my godmother's house straight after school at 7 p.m. and go to the airport with her, where her flight is at 10:55 p.m... Worst comes to worst, I have CSAS(communication Skills For Applied Sciecne) tomorrow... The lucky thing is I am going to do my maths homework with my friends, Maryann and Jia Lin after school at 4 p.m...

Well, that's my life... Gotta admit that I have this kind of lifestyle... No regrets :D

Tuesday, November 03, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today is the day that I really had a good time with my friends, Maryann and Jia Lin :D I shall never forget this very day where we had the fun that we've never had before! We nearly fell alseep in BMic lecture, AGAIN, that sounds really ironic... Oh well anyways...

We were playing crossword puzzle during our 3pm break where we use all our brain juices to think of the suitable answers to fit in. When we couldn't find the answers for some of the questions, we went to the computer laboratory to search. Just as Maryann was searching, both Jia Lin and I went to Facebook and checked out our farm, which apparently I was supposed to level up today but in the end I didn't. So in the end Maryann went into Facebook too and we looked at each of our photos... Somehow I find Maryann's pictures funny in such a way that she's doing all kinds of stupid stuffs, like a teenager but still had the kid's thinkings... Oops :P Then we went for our tutorial class...

Like I said, I'll never forget today... :D

Monday, November 02, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

What is life? I always wonder to myself. For a moment i thought it's about friends but in this society, this kind of mindset should really be changed. Even best friends can betray you for his or her personal gains. Is that life? To me it's a definite YES for friendships! I don't trust friendship totally unless he or she really can communicate with me and know me REALLY INSIDE OUT! Some say they know me inside out within months and THAT'S TOTAL BULLSHIT! You don't even know what is my lifestyle and you wanna say you know me FULLY INSIDE OUT? I can tell you straight in your face, THAT'S TOTAL BULLSHIT IF YOU ASK ME! Nobody can understand me fully and will never understand me FULLY unless I want you to. YOU CANNOT COMTROL MY LIFESTYLE NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE! YOU HAVE ABSOLUTE NO RIGHTS TO DO THAT!

To me, the people I cannot accept as friends are:

1. Those who doesn't even try thinking out of the box
2. Insists on their own opinions
3. Being fussy and upset over the slightest things
4.Keep asking questions to the very PRECISE
5. Keep PESTERING and IRRITATING me
6. Restricting my TOTAL freedom
7. Having fantasies for EVERYTHING where it is EXTREMELY UNREALISTIC in the 21st century
8. Trying to control every things in every part of my life
9. Trying to get back at that person, at any costs, who has done him/her wrong and thinks that he/she has done nothing wrong at all

If whoever cannot accept this, I can only tell you that's too bad then. It's just me...

Saturday, October 31, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

I had the worst day ever!! Stupid labs going on for bloody 6 HOURS WITH ONLY AN HOUR BREAK IN BETWEEN! Making my life utterly miserable :( Now I am here in EIR(Effective Internet Research) class for another 2 WHOLE HOURS!!! How fustrating can it be??

Anyway going to celebrate my father's birthday tonight as his birthday falls on today, 29/10. This is the one and only thing that can comfort me for getting stuck in school with all the lectures and labs for the whole of 10 hours...

Today is just not my day...

Thursday, October 29, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

I shall not blog too much today. Having fun over at CSAS(Communication Skills for Applied Science) where we have learnt on basic working etiquette. The teacher instructed us to perform a shot skit in front of the whole class to demonstrate each of the following senarios on how we should greet people differently and professionally. But the lectures today are boring too. Hope that I can have fun for tomorrow's lab. :D

Wednesday, October 28, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

I thought BMic lecture is already boring enough for me but the tutorial IS EVEN MORE BORING!!! I seriously had the WORST TUTORIAL EVER FOR THE ENTIRE SEMESTER 1.2!!! That freaking tutor, who's a doctor some more, gave such a tutorial that almost made us felt like dozing off... I really wonder how she managed to become a teacher of Temasek Polytechnic??? But when i thought about it, I know why... Cause doctors ARE SUPPOSED TO BE EXTREMELY BORING IN THE VERY FIRST PLACE!!! :P

Anyway I had a good time over at music class where we had to perform a short performance in front of the whole class on creating rhythm. We also had to rewrite the song "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" in a primitive form, in layman's term is cave man form. The tutor instructed us to imagine ourselves back in the ancient times where music was not even known to the world yet. So my classmates and I had to brainstorm out the whole song, like what a composer would do in the ancient times. It tooks us the bloody 10 minutes just to compose a song out!! Can you imagine that?? Then we had to show our "masterpiece" to the whole class and apparently the class really had a good laugh by what we've done.

After the class, the tutor asked me what grade I had attained for my piano. I replied grade 8 and she wondered if I were to comtinue my piano further for diploma, which I said yes. So she asked me where am I learning my piano and I replied Yicha Music Studio. Then all of a sudden she said that she's also from my piano school before. So I was like: Oh my gosh! How small the world actually is? Well, I hope that the next lesson can be for interesting instead of keep telling us to perform in front of the whole class... :P

Tuesday, October 27, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Went to the movies with my friends at Cineplex Orchard last friday. We watched Halloween 2 and apparently my friends were covering themselves with something throughout wherever the scary scenes came out and I just sit there and stared at the horror scenes blankly... I really had a very good laugh as their facial expressions are DAMN FUNNY!!! When the movie was over, we went out and they said, " Don't ever call me to watch horror movies ever again!!! It's DAMN SCARY!!!"

Today I really had a tiring day in school. I was nearly dozing off the whole way through BMic lecture in school whereby the lecturer is going through the lecture very slowly, like a tortoise talking!! Luckily there's BNF(Basic Nutrition Food) tutorial where the lesson is really fun by completing a worksheet within 30 mins.. Haha.. Got timing sia!! And today's cafeteria, or food court rather, is FULLY PACKED UNTIL YOU CAN'T EVEN FIND SEATS FOR THE NEXT HALF AN HOUR!!! I mean WTF?? We're rushing for our lectures and the whole food court is filled with people?? And the worst thing is we met this middle aged woman who uses coins and a packet of tissues to chop a table to indicate that's her "seat". We thought it was okay for us to occupy the table but apparently not... Then maryann made a comment, she heard it and even scolded her for giving such comments... What the hell is on that woman's mind?? How can you actually use a packet of tissues to chop the table where the SINGAPORE LAW DOESN'T EVEN INCLUDE SUCH A RULE WHEREBY YOU CAN USE A PACKET OF TISSUES TO CHOP THE TABLE AND SAY IT'S YOUR TABLE??? In the end, we were reduced to take aways and sat at the study bench at level 1 of IT school... How ironic is that where we used to sit inside the food court every single day?? It's just not our day...

Monday, October 26, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today is just not my day. My toe actually got hit by the bottle of finely chopped garlic which fell from right at the top of the refrigerator!!! My toe felt very numb at the very first few minutes but after that, the excruciating pain comes... A big blood clot is coagulating inside my toenail and it's spreading like a pandemic, bit by bit. I cannot imagine how i am going to spend my time with that blood clot that is to be there for the bloody few days to a week!!! And now it's affecting my whole foot where I cannot walk properly with that pain inside my toe!! How unlucky can I get??? It's just not my day...

Saturday, October 24, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y

Today is my very first day writing in this blog. I don't know why the hell am i creating a blog right now but i think it's because of the influence that i've got over at my EIR(Effective Internet Research) class on thursday. I first thought to myself: why the hell do people create blogs in the very first place? Some say it's fun whereas the others say we can write personal things inside, like an online diary. Maybe i got no personal stuff like my friends do, but i will try to write as many things as possible so as "not to waste my time spent on this bloody blog" :P... Well that's all for today... haiz... returning to school on monday :(

Saturday, October 24, 2009; Finding Leisures Back From Hectic Life.Y